????????????????????????????????????第?????????十?????????八?????????章?????????之?????????四
?????????「???夜???容???，???你???发???什???麽???愣???？???」
?????????被???萧???允???禾???这???样???一???喊???，???我???才???回???过???神???。???走???到???他???身???边???，???主???动???伸???手???轻???轻???拥???住???他???。???他???明???显???一???僵???，???却???仍???伸???手???回???拥???。
?????????「???你???突???然???这???样???热???情???，???我???有???点???害???怕???，???你???没???这???麽???容???易???移???情???别???恋???吧???？???」
?????????这???种???气???氛???下???还???能???开???玩???笑???，???天???底???下???就???他???一???人???。???但???我???没???回???应???他???的???玩???笑???，???轻???声???一???叹???，???迳???自?????着???：???「???允???禾???哥???，???倘???若???你???找???到???了???照???顾???你???的???人???，???一???定???要???写???下???来???，???然???後???烧???给???我???，???好???让???我???安???心???。???」
?????????他???用???力???拍???上???我???的???头???，???方???才???明???明???是???他???先?????些???触???霉???头???的???话???，???现???在???居???然???反???过???来???教???训???我???：???「???你???小???子???又???不???是???马???上???要???si???了──???你?????那???位???老???爷???爷???送???你???的???药???，???真???难???受???记???得???吃???一???颗???，???别???si???撑???着???。???」
?????????「???嗯???。???」???轻???轻???一???声???应???和???，???我???缓???缓???松???开???手???，???和???他???四???目???相???接???，???「???允???禾???哥???，???能???够???认???识???你???，???我???真???的???很???高???兴???。???」
?????????他???难???得???露???出???认???真???神???se???，???深???深???望???着???我???，???目???光???似???能???穿???透???进???我???内???心???深???处???。???好???半???晌???，???嗓???音???低???沉???：???「???傻???瓜???，???我???也???是???。???」
?????????萧???允???禾???将???视???线???转???到???桌???上???，???桌???缘???放???着???我???以???前???给???过???他???的???铁???簪???，???他???一???手???拿???起???攒???在???掌???心???，???在???我???面???前???晃???了???晃???，???「???这???我???带???走???了???，???可???以???吧???？???」
?????????我???淡???然???一???笑???，???「???送???出???去???的???东???西???，???没???有???收???回???来???的???道???理???。???」
?????????那???张???脸???庞???又???漾???起???我???熟???悉???的???笑???意???，???挥???了???挥???手???便???转???身???，???既???没???有?????道???别???话???语???，???亦???没???有???回???头???，???直???到???帐???帘???重???新???盖???下???，???徒???剩???我???一???人???留???在???帐???中???。???我???神???se???怅???然???，???送???走???了???在???这???一???生???中???对???我???来?????同???样???重???要???之???人???。
?????????盼???望???他???余???下???日???子???安???稳???，???下???辈???子???一???世???长???安──???是???我???能???替???他???做???的???最???後???一???件???事???情???。
?????????没???多???久???，???以???列???哥???走???入???营???帐???中???，???语???带???安???慰???：???「???还???好???吗???？???」
?????????我???知???道???他???是???在???问???萧???允???禾???离???开???的???事???情???，???我???们???早???已???有???所???准???备???，???不???是???毫???无???预???警???，???只???是???有???些???细???枝???末???节???没???让???对???方???知???道???，???各???自???保???有???各???自???的???秘???密???。
?????????「???嗯???，???其???实???他???离???开???也???好???。???我???们???虽???然???只???差???一???步???就???能???攻???入???敌???军???首???都???，???但???仍???在???行???军???打???仗???，???允???禾???哥???待???在???这???里???太???过???辛???苦???，???毕???竟???他???不???是???受???过???训???练???的???将???士???…???…???」
?????????我???话???还???没?????完???，???他???忽???然???扳???过???我???的???脸???，???深???邃???目???光???中???带???有???几???分???不???舍???，???我???却???想???不???到???他???在???心???疼???什???麽???。
?????????「???容???儿???，???我???是???问???你???。???你???应???该???要???多???想???着???自???己???一???点???。???」
?????????我???顿???时???怔???住???，???「???唔???，???我???只???是???担???心???他???，???他???帮???了???我???很???多???忙???…???…???」
?????????「???我???知???道???，???只???是???就???想???提???醒???你???，???还???有???我???在???这???里???可???以???让???你???依???靠???。???」???他???无???奈???一???叹???，???在???我???面???前???蹲???下???，???仰???首???正???对???上???我???，???转???而???握???上???我???的???双???手???，???温???柔???包???覆???住???，???「???你???脸???有???点???红???，???是???不???是???不???舒???服???？???」
?????????眨???了???眨???眼???睛???，???面???上???是???有???几???分???熨???热???之???感???，???还???有???身???上???阵???阵???涌???现???的???疲???倦???酸???楚???。???这???自???从???我???醒???後???没???多???久???就???开???始???隐???隐???发???作???，???有???时???候???甚???至???难???以???喘???过???一???口???气???，???我???想???这???跟???我???剩???下???的???寿???命???不???多???有???关???。???为???了???怕???他???担???心???，???我???只???好???随???口???搪???塞???：???「???没???事???，???应???该???是???还???没???适???应???过???来???…???…???」
?????????「???那???去???睡???一???下???吧???。???」
?????????我???点???点???头???，???刚???站???起???来???，???脚???步???一???时???不???稳???踉???跄???，???顺???手???抓???住???旁???边???的???人???，???以???列???哥???也???极???其???迅???速???抱???住???我???搂???在???怀???里???。???现???在???脸???上???的???温???热???到???底???是???因???为???身???t???不???是???还???是???肢???t???接???触???产???生???的???羞???涩???，???实???在???分???不???清???。
?????????「???对???、???对???不???起──???」
?????????他???轻???声???一???笑???，???「???在???我???面???前???，???不???用???这???样???逞???强???。???」???边?????，???他???忽???然???弯???下???腰???，???而???我???感???到???双???脚???蓦???然???一???轻???，???整???个???被???惊???吓???到?????不???出???话???来???。???他???托???了???托???双???手???，???似???在???掂???量???什???麽???，???才?????：???「???好???像???b???之???前???轻???了???不???少???。???」
?????????听???见???他???的???评???论???，???我???霎???时???回???神???，???「???以???、???以???列???哥──???你???不???用???这???样???，???我???可???以???自???己???走???！???」
?????????「???可???你???方???才???差???点???跌???倒???，???要???是???真???跌???了???，???我???会???心???疼???。???」???我???怔???怔???望???着???他???的???俊???美???笑???靥???，???什???麽???反???驳???之???词???都???忘???光???光???了???，???「???容???儿???，???剩???下???这???些???日???子???，???让???我???多???疼???疼???你???。???」
?????????当???下???我???过???於???怔???愣???，???没???察???觉???他???的???话???中???之???意???。???後???来???想???起──???才???知???道???他???是???花???了???多???大???的???心???力???才???能???面???带???温???柔???浅???笑???对???我?????出???这???些???话???。
?????????没???有???流???下???任???何???一???滴???泪???。
?????????他???抱???着???我???走???到???床???边???，???将???我???轻???轻???放???下???，???替???我???盖???上???暖???袄???，???「???你???安???心???睡???吧???，???我???在???这???边???。???」
?????????「???这???、???这???样???我???自???己???哪???睡???得???着???？???」
?????????其???实???我???的???意???思???是???有???人???看???着???我???难???以???入???眠???，???他???微???微???偏???头???，???念???头???一???转???，???「???也???是???，???那???我???累???了???，???一???起???睡???是???个???好???主???意???。???」
?????????等???我???意???识???过???来──???他???已???经???把???我???挪???进???去???，???然???後???自???己???躺???了???上???来???。???帐???中???临???时???架???设???的???床???铺???本???就???不???像???府???里???那???样???舒???适???宽???大???，???躺???了???两???人???更???显???拥???挤???，???他???也???不???在???意???，???迳???自???将???我???搂???在???怀???中???，???单???掌???轻???拍???抚???在???我???的???後???背???，???像???是???在???哄???小???孩???子???入???睡???一???样???。
?????????大???概???是???见???我???迟???迟???没???有???闭???上???眼???睛???，???他???缓???声???道???：???「???别???想???太???多???，???我???不???会???做???什???麽???，???你???睡???吧???。???」
?????????这???样???一???讲???好???像???是???我???很???期???待???他???做???什???麽???一???样???，???我???抿???紧???了???唇???，???随???後???才???低???声???反???驳???：???「???我???哪???有???想???什???麽???，???只???是???…???…???想???多???看???你???几???眼???。???」
?????????在???我???离???开???前???，???把???你???深???深???刻???在???我???心???上???，???这???样???我???过???奈???何???桥???时???才???不???会???遗???忘???。
?????????「???那???我???也???该???多???看???看???你???。???」
?????????我???们???距???离???如???此???相???近???，???不???只???吐???息???，???彷???佛???连???x???中???的???鼓???动???都???能???听???见???。
?????????「???容???儿???，???我???好???像???没???跟???你?????过──???我???一???直???觉???得???，???你???笑???起???来???很???好???看???。???淡???淡???的???，???十???分???轻???柔???，???好???像???冬???日???里???的???煦???yan???。???」
?????????我???微???微???一???怔???，???想???起???来???萧???允???禾???跟???我?????过???，???当???时???我???还???心???想???以???列???哥???从???未???这???样???称???赞???我???。???如???今???他???像???是???要???补???齐???我???内???心???的???所???有???遗???憾???，???脱???口???而???出???。
?????????「???我???也???觉???得???…???…???你???很???好???看???。???」???不???知???道???是???什???麽???使???然???，???我???大???胆???伸???手???贴???上???他???的???双???颊???，???顺???着???他???的???细???致???眉???眼???、???英???挺???鼻???梁???，???到???薄美???双???唇???，???细???细???抚???过???，???「???是???这???世???上???除???了???兄???长???之???外???，???我???觉???得???最???好???看???的???人???。???」
?????????他???的???神???se???间???似???在???隐???忍???什???麽???，???好???半???晌???，???微???微???蹙???起???的???眉???间???才???舒???坦???，???「???傻???瓜???，???这???时???候???，???就???别???再???拿???我???跟???清???作???b???较???，?????我???就???可???以???了???。???」???刚?????完???，???他???凑???近???贴???上???我???的???双???唇???。
?????????如???此???温???暖???的???碰???触???，???让???我???心???生???贪???婪──???多???希???望???时???间???静???止???於???此???，???让???我???们???永???远???不???要???面???对???离???别???的???那???一???刻???。
?????????翌???日???，???一???封???降???书???送???来???，???免???去???了???一???场???流???血???冲???突???，???但???送???来???的???降???书???中???也???表???示???仍???有???部???分???武???将???并???不???接???受???投???降???，???有???可???能???仍???会???有???反???叛???之???举???，恳求切???勿???迁???怒???到???普???通???百???姓???身???上???，???将???立???场???划???分???明???确???，???不???愿???再???受???到???叛???将???牵???连???。
?????????不???论???如???何???，???我???们???还???是???得???进???城???接???管???，???预???计???四???日???後???我???们???便???可???以???进???入???城???都???，???我???也???向???以???列???哥???提???议???於???进???入???城???都???之???前???分???成???几???路???在???附???近???搜???索???叛???军???踪???影???，???能???先???做???好???防???患???是???好???的???，???提???早???让???北???方???安???定???，???他???也???能???尽???快???返???回???他???应???该???待???的???地???方???。
?????????行???军???四???日???，???他???在???休???息???之???时???往???往???会???待???在???我???身???边???，???夜???里???也???会???拥???我???入???睡???。???而???趁???着???他???睡???着???之???际???，???我???会???偷???偷???爬???起???来???，???趁???四???下???无???人???到???外???头???去???呼???x1???些???新???鲜???空???气???。
?????????「???咳???、???咳──???」???我???摀???着???嘴???巴???，???却???无???法???抑???制???鲜???血???从???唇???角???溢???出???，???沾???染???我???的???手???心???。
?????????我???尽???力???咽???下???鲠???在???喉???间???的???酸???意???和???滚???烫???，???每???一???次???呕???吐???都???在???灼???烧???我???的???喉???道???，???而???且???尽???管???呕???出???来???也???不???会???就???此???停???止???，???反???倒???加???剧???恶???心???感???。???我???仓???皇???挣???扎???之???时???从???怀???中???掏???出???锦???囊???，???连???找???水???都???没???有???心???思???，???直???接???和???唾???ye???及???鲜???血???b???着???自???己???吞???进???去???。
?????????好???半???晌???，???我???总???算???舒???缓???了???一???些???。
?????????浑???身???冒???出???冷???汗???，???仰???靠???着???一???旁???的???树???g???大???口???喘???气???。
?????????每???一???次???都???让???我???痛???得???生???不???如???si???，???可???是???我???不???能???倒???在???这???里???，???我???还???得???回???去???，???回???去???他???的???身???边???。
?????????我???摇???摇???晃???晃???站???起???身???，???找???了???个???水???桶???清???洗???手???上???和???脸???上???的???痕???迹???，???漱???清???口???中???的???血???腥???味???，???确???保???自???己???看???来???跟???平???日???无???异???，???才???拖???着???十???分???沉???重???的???身???子???回???到???帐???前???。???前???三???个???晚???上???，???我???每???每???钻???回???床???上???，???他???都???貌???似???还???在???熟???睡???。
?????????今???天???，???在???我???还???没???伸???手???，???帐???帘???掀???了???开???来──???我???们???沉???默???以???对???片???刻???，???在???我???还???未???分???清???他???目???光???中???的???深???意???，???他???已???然???紧???紧???搂???住???我???。
?????????我???深???x1???了???一???口???气???，???尽???量???放???缓???心???情???，???不???过???有???点???嘶???哑???的???声???音???出???卖???了???我???，???「???以???列???哥???…???…???抱???歉???，???我???睡???不???着???…???…???去???走???走???。???」
?????????他???也???没???多???问???，???只???是?????：???「???嗯???，???我???想???也???是???，???只???是???你???这???次???去???了???有???点???久???，???我???担???心???。???」
?????????话???一???出???口???，???我???反???问???：???「???你???…???…???前???几???天???没???睡???着???？???」
?????????他???诚???实???告???知???：???「???你???不???在???了???，???我???怎???麽???会???不???知???道???？???」???他???顿???了???顿???，???轻???轻???抚???过???我???的???发???顶???，???「???可???我???相???信???，???你???会???回???来???，???所???以???我???好???好???等???着???。???今???天???不???知???怎???麽???了???，???有???点???耐???不???住???x???子???。???」
?????????我???眼???中???一???热???，???却???不???想???他???发???现???我???的???难???受???，???「???嗯???，???今???天???…???…???走???的???远???了???一???点???。???我???看???见???了???好???圆???的???月???亮???，???还???有???很???多???星???星???，???只???可???惜──???这???里???没???有???种???梅???花???。???」
?????????「???没???关???系???，???家???里???有???、???皇???g0ng???里???也???有???。???」
?????????他???提???醒???我???，???我???微???微???一???怔???，???因???为???我???真???的???忘???了???。???潜???意???识???里???，???我???早???就???不???认???为???还???有???回???去???看???那???些???熟???悉???景???物???的???机???会???。
?????????「???嗯???…???…???再???过???一???阵???子???，???就???会???开???花???了???。???」???我???的???耳???际???贴???着???他???的???心???口???，???眷???恋???不???舍???，???明???明???越???是???相???处???越???加???难???以???释???怀???，???我???却???…???…
?????????一???声???轻???叹???，???我???缓???缓???闭???上???眼???睛???，???叮???嘱???他???：???「???等???到???开???了???，???你???算???一???算???开???了???几???朵???，???看???看???府???里???那???棵???开???的???茂???盛???，???还???是???我???们???在???皇???g0ng???种???的???繁???华???。???等???殷???觉???正???式???建???国──???肯???定???会???很???忙???，???你???要???记???住???。???」
?????????「???好???，???那???你???记???得???提???醒???我???。???」
?????????他???随???口???一???句???，???却???让???我???回???答???不???出???。
?????????「???容???儿???，???你???累???了???。???再???进???去???休???息???一???下???吧???，???我???们???再???一???个???时???辰???才???出???发???。???」
?????????结???果???，???是???他???结???束???了???这???个???话???题???。???此???时???，???天???边???微???微???亮???起???，???我???们???不???约???而???同???望???向???日???出???的???方???向──???於???他???如???今???的???身???分???而???言???，???属???於???殷???觉???的???一???切???彷???佛???才???正???要???开???始???；???但???於???我???们???而???言???，???这???一???切???却???马???上???要???结???束???了???。
?????????过???了???一???个???时???辰???，???我???们???拔???营???继???续???朝???着???北???方???前???进???，???过???了???一???个???缓???坡???顶???，???远???远???便???能???看???见???cha???着???黑???se???旗???帜???的???城???墙???。???停???顿???半???晌???，???我???望???了???他???一???眼???，???接???着???他???缓???声?????：???「???现???在???起???兵???分???四???路──???由???四???个???方???向???的???城???门???入???城???，???若???在???途???中???有???遇???上???任???何???反???叛???分???子???以???招???降???为???主???，???冥???顽???不???灵???者???再???行???正???法──???！???」
?????????「???是──???！???」
?????????两???路???先???行???前???进???，???我???正???要???策???马???前???行???，???熟???悉???嗓???音???忽???然???喊???住???我???。???我???微???微???侧???目???，???发???丝???遮???覆???住???些???许???视???线???，???我???仍???是???对???上???了???他???的???英???挺???面???容???。
?????????「???容???儿???，???记???住???我???跟???你?????过???的???话???。???」
?????????几???千???个???人???影???伫???立???在???此???，???此???时???，???两???双???眼???睛???里???宛???若???只???能???望???见???对???方???。
?????????「???嗯???，???我???记???得???。???」
?????????我???们???给???了???彼???此???承???诺──???不???论???去???到???哪???里???，???我???都???会???在???你???身???边???，???永???远???不???曾???离???去???。
?????????唇???角???微???微???扬???起???，???我???希???望???在???他???的???深???邃???目???光???中???看???见???我???的???最???後???一???眼???是???面???带???微???笑???，???毫???无???遗???憾???的???。
?????????於???是???在???我???露???出???悲???伤???神???se???前???，???我???率???先???转???头???，???用???力???大???喊???掩???饰???我???的???不???舍???：???「???出???发──???！???」
?????????我???领???着???的???千???人???队???缓???缓???前???进???，???他???们???跟???在???我???身???後???，???同???样???坚???信???着???这???一???切???会???赢???来???最???美???好???的???结???果???，???苦???难???终???将???结???束???。
?????????抹???去???悬???挂???在???眼???角???的???一???滴???泪???水???，???我???一???边???策???马???，???一???边???喃???喃???低???语???：???「???以???列???，???对???不???起???…???…???放???心???，???我???会???记???得???…???…???好???好???记???得???…???…???虽???然???不???是???全???无???遗???憾???，???但???我???现???在???一???点???都???不???後???悔???。???」???幸???好???我???领???於???队???伍???正???前???方???，???挺???直???了???身???子???，???所???以???没???有???人???看???见???我???流???泪???的???狼???狈???模???样???，???「???因???为???，???我???是???如???此???ai???你???啊???。???」
?????????数???十???道???锐???利???剑???锋???朝???我???左???右???横???削???或???是???劈???砍???而???来???，???我???下???腰???闪???过???，???右???脚???支???点???移???至???单???手???，???一???腿???扫???过???立???即???让???一???人???扑???倒???，???顺???势???压???倒???他???身???旁???的???同???夥???，???两???人???哀???嚎???惨???叫???之???余???，???我???再???朝???右???侧???翻???滚???一???圈???躲???开???利???刃???，???一???拉???稳???身???子???立???即???举???剑???y???生???碰???上???三???把???长???剑???，???剑???身???发???出???叽???叽???声???响???，???我???的???双???膝???逐???渐???下???弯???，???挡???得???吃???力???。
?????????「???哼???！???少???挣???扎???，???少???点???皮???r0u???痛???！???」
?????????「???放???心???，???我???们???可???不???是???小???人???，???一???刀???就???让???你???痛???快???！???」
?????????我???咬???紧???牙???关???，???丝???毫???不???敢???松???懈???，???眼???角???余???光???乍???见???其???余???几???人???从???我???身???後???缓???步???b???近???，???抓???准???距???离???，???我???陡???然???松???手???，???他???们???没???预???料???到???我???会???忽???然???放???弃???抵???抗???，???剑???身???直???直???下???劈???。???我???趁???势???扼???上???一???人???手???腕???转???移???他???手???腕???方???向???，???削???了???旁???边???那???人???的???手???筋???。
?????????惨???叫???声???立???刻???响???起???，???被???我???扼???住???手???的???那???人???反???应???过???来???，???伸???手???就???想???撞???开???我???，???但???我???反???倒???si???si???抓???着???他???，???他???被???反???作???用???力???扯???过???来???，???我???同???时???察???觉???後???方???有???人???骤???进???，???反???手???揪???住???他???的???衣???领???拉???着???他???旋???身???，???剑???尖???从???他???肩???头???穿???出???的???顷???刻──???他???还???没???意???会???到???发???生???什???麽???事???。
?????????一???双???瞠???大???的???眼???睛???，???si???si???瞪???着???我???。
?????????我???抢???下???他???手???中???的???剑???，???眼???睛???连???看???都???不???看???反???向???朝???右???侧???刺???去???，???身???後???再???度???传???来???一???声???哀???号──???我???离???致???命???处???偏???离???了???几???寸???，???虽???未???取???了???他???的???命???，???却???也???让???他???无???法???再???爬???起???来???。
?????????拉???开???距???离???，???我???和???这???群???人???对???峙???，???他???们???却???少???了???将???近???一???半???的???人???，???神???se???间???对???我???的???警???戒???之???se???攀???升???到???了???极???点???。